College Life

St. Martin's has turned out to be a great decision for me in some ways, I'm doing well in my classes, becoming more independent, and gained more responsibility and self-awareness. There are quite a few things I haven't liked about St. Martin's also. Unfortunately, I was placed with a roommate who didn't enjoy my company to say the least and ultimately ratted me out to the school for violating school policies. Other than being arrested for having less than a gram of marijuana and being kicked out of my room, this semester has gone pretty well. I think I finally found out what I want to major in and more importantly what I wan't to do with my degree. Computer science has always been an interest of mine and now I finally have had the opportunity to learn more in depth from a professor. Although programming isn't my interest within the CS department, I've gained a greater understanding towards how computers function and the fundamental concepts in creating programs. I decided to come to St. Martin's two weeks prior to the first day of class knowing that I would transfer after this year to somewhere more fitting. That's still my plan and I am more than ever right now eager to leave. I don't understand how I could get in so much trouble for having marijuana. I was fully compliant with everyone involved yet I'm still stuck with all these sanctions by the school and even the law enforcement. It would be different in my mind if I was dealing marijuana or even had a large quantity but the fact that I had less than a gram and told them that I used it off campus; it had no deviation in the school's decisions. I just think its unfair that people can be caught drinking up to three times before any real actions are taken but since I smoke I must be punished like a criminal. St. Martin's needs to broaden there awareness when in comes to drugs because I think my situation is a classic example of the stupidity and misconceptions people still have. I was given the same sanctions from the school that a drug dealer was given for his first violation even though I smoked by myself, off campus, and with practically nothing on me. I have no respect for the people involved in what happened especially my ex-roommate who decided to tell the RA's before ever even having a discussion with me about my "problem". Everyone kept asking me if I have problems. What's that supposed to mean? Doesn't everybody have problems? Because I smoke to relief the stress of this shitty environment I now call home I should have the cops called on me? So should I just drink when I'm stressed then? At least i know that I wouldn't be arrested or put on probation by the school if i did that. So to sum it all up, I think it's obvious that this hasn't been the greatest experience for me. I know there are better ways of dealing with stress but i also know what I happened to me wasn't fair. I don't have a problem with drugs its a problem with stress, mainly because I'm somewhere I don't want to be; which is a very bad feeling to have. I came here to further my education, not to cause any trouble (which I still don't believe that I have), and thats what I plan on doing for the rest of my stay here.